JOURNEYS OF FAITH

Ann

Ann (Ryan) Pack identifies as a transgender woman. She has been married to an amazing woman for 15 years, and they have a 10-year-old daughter. They live in Syracuse, Utah. Ann is the oldest of five children and has lived in Utah her whole life and grew up in Kaysville, a small town 20 minutes north of Salt Lake City. She served a mission in London, England and graduated from University of Phoenix with a bachelor’s degree in Information Technology. She currently works for Zion’s Bank as a systems administrator.

Ann’s Journey of Faith

NO MORE SECRETS

I’ve lived the majority of my life keeping a secret from those around me. To me, this secret felt like the most shameful, loathsome secret that anyone could have. I felt so much shame that for a long time, I convinced myself it wasn’t true. Secrets like this can be destructive and prevent us from realizing happiness in our lives. My secret is that I feel that I am female.

Gender dysphoria (GD) is the distress some individuals experience because of incongruence they sense between their physical sex and their gender identity, or the gender they feel they are.  Many who experience gender dysphoria or identify as transgender have a soul wrenching struggle. Questions enter the individual’s mind such as: “what is wrong with me?” or “how do I make this go away?”  For me the answers to these questions always reinforced the feeling that God must not love me…